Welcome to my paradox, I`m Jessi a.ka. AJ..excuse me while I express my thoughts in writing...

Two weeks to make the gown, a day of mask materials-accessory-clutch bag-shoes shopping, and a day to design the mask. This is what it took to prepare for our company's Masquerade-Black Ball themed Christmas Party. The event took place at the Megatent, Libis, QC. We book a room at the Hotel 878 Libis to make things easier for the rest of our preparation. This involved hair and make-up courtesy of my colleague, Precy's friends - Carla and Dolfa. I especially thank Dolfa who did my hair and make-up. Although the after party didn't go as expected (which is a first for me...no pun intended) it was still a great night of dancing, screaming and eating at the Concur Black Ball.

On the way home the next morning, I couldn't help but reminisce on the night and feeling rather blessed of the blessings I've been receiving the past few months. Of course this is compared to the past 5 years I've been working after college. Don't get me wrong the experience from those years are a privilege and molding, but somehow it doesn't come close to how I'm feeling now. I may be exaggerating or be a little too dramatic, but that's the best way I can explain how I feel about this past year.

I took another risk and it seems to be paying off. Although I'm going to delay counting my eggs for now as I don't want to assume everything is alright. Nothing will be alright until everything is in it's place and well that takes more dedication. (this may not make sense to you but to me it does...sorry ahihi)

Here are my fave pictures from the Concur Black Ball:













Have you ever come to a point of wanting to learn more about something? That's how I am everyday. But it's not things that will make you money all the time or make you more intellectual as an individual. It's stuff like music and fashion. Of course I'm not saying you can't make money out of it, just that with the kind of work I have entered into it really doesn't fit in. (Am I making any sense? LOL)

Anyway...yeah so I'm literally greedy for music and fashion right now. I want to know what's new and what's good. What I could try to wear. These days watching MTV, Channel V or MYX isn't enough because they don't really show "everything" out there. Or maybe they do but you can't expect me to sit down AAAALLL day and watch for what's new that's just ridiculous. The same goes for the radio. As for fashion..well..I'm no fashionista but I do love looking at what's new in fashion. It amazes me how creative one person can be to create such wonderful pieces to wear. Yes, not everyone can pull it off or fit in one (like me) but it's still good to look at. Of course let's not forget the prices. OH MY GAHD!! http://www.anikaos.com/0004-pinkusagi/kaos-pinkusagi23.gif the prices...I don't even want to start...But I guess even they need to earn money... http://www.anikaos.com/0004-pinkusagi/kaos-pinkusagi21.gif

Well yeah...I just wanted to get that out of my head...excuse me if my babbling bores you...http://www.anikaos.com/0004-pinkusagi/kaos-pinkusagi03.gif

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On a personal note, my skin asthma has made its presence visible again. Uncomfortable and well expensive. http://www.anikaos.com/0004-pinkusagi/kaos-pinkusagi02.gif So if you have complaints about not having enough money to buy your "material wants" then think twice because the amount you spend for it can probably be spent to buy my meds. http://www.anikaos.com/0004-pinkusagi/kaos-pinkusagi42.gif

http://www.anikaos.com/0004-pinkusagi/kaos-pinkusagi40.gif The whole Saturday this weekend I was sleeping because of my meds. And I feel rather guilty for not being quite as productive on my last day of work for the week because of my drowsiness...http://www.anikaos.com/0004-pinkusagi/kaos-pinkusagi01.gif

So yeah be glad you're not as sick as I am....



Even though my movie date with Kumareng CJ didn't push through I enjoyed meeting new people earlier this afternoon. Yes, the introvert side of myself has the courage to do group meet ups with strangers from a K-pop forum I'm part of. It's not like it's the first one I've been to. In college it was crazier because I'd meet up with strangers from the Bamboo (the Band) Yahoogroups forum whenever there were gigs nearby or far. LOL. Those were the days...




See this is what happens when I start to think too much and can't seem to express it in a journal-like way of writing. Instead I express it in poetry, although it doesn't always convey what I'm feeling or thinking. I use poetry as a why to filter some of the stressful thoughts. Thoughts that have been stuck in the darkest corners of my mind. Thoughts I've set aside for later use. Thoughts I've hidden in a shell. It sure has been a long while since I've written poems. Which explains why they're a bit shorter than my usual stuff.You might think my writing to be childish because I make it a point to have each end of the line rhyme. But that's just how I like it. Besides it's not really that easy to rhyme something and still keep the thought of the poem going. It won't make sense to you unless you open your mind.While most famous poets back then or currently like to use old words or deep words, I prefer to keep it simple. I don't know why I'm even explaining myself about this...LOL









 After all the pasta cooking, the family went to watch the Chinese Zodiac a.k.a. CZ12 at Southmall. It's Jackie Chan's last movie before his retirement. Kwon Sang-woo, was also in the film, you probably know him as the leading man in Stairway to Heaven. I only knew of the movie from my lil bro and didn't really look up the cast, so I was a surprised to see him there. As usual he looked the same...hot and cute...kekeke..come on it's KWON SANG-WOO !!!    Anyhoo.....the movie was really funny and cool; just as you would expect from a Jackie Chan movie. Although some of you may think it not as great as his past movies but you should admit that it was still good. You can't really expect sooo much. I mean the guy is getting old (safety first) and I think this movie was meaningful to him because he did all the stunts himself like old times and got injured himself in the process like old times. ahehe...Hats off to Jackie Chan for a movie well done. I'll miss his movies, only Jackie Chan could do that kind of humor and action on and off cam. It's still kinda sad since there's no one else like him in the generation of actors today, which I have to say is epic. These days it's about good-looking guys with big guns who can pound you to the ground...tsk where's the fun in that?   I'm so going to buy the DVD of this film when it comes out 

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Note to self: Never go near touch your dog smelling of allergy ointment or else you get bitten. 


Yup, for the Nth time my dog, Gizmo, bit me. No correction, he chomped on my hand for a good 1 minute. He was soo irritated after I patted him (note he was the one that came to me for a petting) that he literally chomped on my right hand; leaving it bruised and a piece of skin nicked off.  The wound is a bit deep I could literally see inside, making me nauseous afterwards. I had to lay down after disinfecting it because I really felt like throwing up. So here I am on my second day putting an ice pack on my swollen hand. 


As punishment my lil bro locked him in his dog house, when we usually let him out in the day so he can stretch his limbs. Tsk...my dog is so sensitive to smell that even wearing cologne or perfume gets him riled up.